It is not only dark in the pitch blackness, it is freezing cold.
I had no idea where the hell I was going, so I asked Alice, “Why are we going so far back?
‘Why are you trying to go so far back?
It must be pretty far for you.”
‘Yeah? What do you mean?”
This tunnel is the length of years of my distant memory. It means I am so many months away from the place I want to return to.
I see. But even though so many years have passed, this memory is so important to Alice that she still wants to go back.
Yes, it is. Yes, it is very important. It is a very warm memory. I don’t hate you for saying that you can help me. But…”
While having this conversation, we were sucked deeper into the tunnel, but the darkness continued and there was no sign of reaching the memory Alice wanted to go to.
Then Alice became frustrated.
I still can’t get there!” I thought to myself.
While talking with Alice, I began to think that perhaps this jet-black tunnel was a manifestation of Alice’s obsession.
Alice, who has repeatedly reincarnated, unable to let go of her feelings of where her soul had been.
It is said that to be reincarnated is to gain some kind of experience, but for Alice, who cannot forget her former place even after reincarnation, I thought that the increased experience of loneliness and loneliness had the result of making her more attached.
So the coldness of the jet-black tunnel that we are now heading deeper into is loneliness. I thought that the length might represent the years of obsession.
I thought to myself, “Don’t get mad at me. I’m sorry, Alice. If you want to get back to where you used to be, you’re going to have to let go of that former place, that warm memory, to get there.”
As soon as I said that, Alice burst into tears and sobbed profusely.